This is a cross-postable entry into this journal, but I’m noticing a pattern in my life that kind of ties some strings together.
In the past month, things in my personal life have happened while I’ve been exercising. For example, I got asked to submit a book proposal while out for a run. I got an email about a job application while out on my recent long bike ride. Today, my teaching application was accepted by NYC School Department so that now I can move onto the next step in the hiring process.
I note this here because it seems as soon as I’m totally absorbed in my workout, when the adrenaline is pumping and I push myself physically, all else falls away. My worries over my future, my career path, my self-deprecation – all of it – fades away.
And when I let go of all that anxiety, it’s as if the wheels can turn on their own. It’s as if I’m standing in my own way.
I don’t claim to understand any of this or tout myself as having tapped into a secret or anything. It is just how things are happening and it feels good. My body is morphing. My life is too. It’s all becoming quite amazing to me, and rather than over-analyze it to death, I’m going to simply enjoy it. I think, perhaps, I need to. The anxiety has been a challenge for me.
I’m going to enjoy the day today, a warm day with a milky sky overhead and a slight breeze in the air. It’s a good day.