Mid-Week

I still can’t believe it’s only Wednesday. I’m feeling so tired, and beat down, surely, it must be closer to Friday than this?  In any regard, I didn’t want to post just so I could bitch and moan.  I wanted to just write down some of the thoughts that greeted me upon waking this morning.

Soon, there will be a shift in my life.  Soon, if all goes well, my life will become a little restructured, and though I welcome a change up of things, I’m still wondering how I’ll make the adjustment.  These changes, thankfully, have been coming at me in a semi-organic way – meaning if it felt good/right, I went with it; I am rolling with it.  Still, as with most changes, there is an adjustment period, and it’s that time which usually causes the most anxiety in me.

Okay, so I’m talking rather nebulously, and for that I apologize.  Honestly, after this Friday, I’ll go into more detail.  I mentioned I have an interview for a new second/part-time job on the podcast.  I’m also preparing myself mentally for the adjustment of school.  I was working on my study plan yesterday morning, and as I was going into finer detail with what I want to focus on, and what I want my writing to explore, it really hit me that this whole process is going to take a large chunk of my already-short time.  I may not have time to work both jobs, and attend to my studies.  I would probably need to give up a job in order to create space in my day/week for the work I’ll be doing.  I only hope I can manage to figure out a way to pay my share of the bills, and still be able to give the majority of my attention to doing my best with regards to school.  Still, if there’ a will, there will be a way.  It will be up to me to find it, and adjust.  Always adjust.

For now, I do know I’m tired of working two jobs and having little to show for it.  I can recognize when I’m not using my time in the most efficient way possible, or earning money in the most efficient way I can.  I’m hardly using my degree, or any of my further education that I’ve already earned, so there’s lots of potential energy stored inside me that could be put to use.  I could be commanding a higher salary, and it’s that realization that keeps me moving forward, trying to find the best balance of my time, and earning potential, to match my abilities and our expenses.  Eventually, I will get there.  Eventually, I will be in a more fiscally comfortable spot, with a work/life balance that comes close to the ideal for me.  Until then, I’m going to be in flux, and I’ve got to keep on my toes.

Right…off to get ready to go to work!

-Thom